Murphy's Law
When i was in London for my holiday, in the interest of saving money, i lived with my bro in his apartment. In his room, there was a poster regarding Murphy's Law. Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong. Basically that's what its about. Maybe it has to do with some physics theories and stuff, but i left that a long way behind when i left school. So one of the quotes goes, "Never play leapfrog with a unicorn." And my personal favourite, "The item you call someone to fix works when he's there. But as soon as he leaves, its broken again" Its these bits of humour which add some colour to what would be the most boring period of my life.
Ever since i left the Army back in November last year, i can count the number of times i've gone out with my fingers and toes. So for 5 months i haven't really done anything productive or vaguely interesting. Yeah, it gets kinda lonely when you don't head out once in awhile. Seriously. Other than for my grand holiday to London, i haven't really done anything. Fine, i do go for driving lessons, but i'm really crap so i kinda hate going for them. Sigh. My life is going out of order. I don't even know what i should do. I'm bored, lonely and depressed. Maybe the beginning of school would bring some relief.
Speaking of school, i've got my timetable for the special term which starts in May. I only have 2 days of school a week. Hah! Fantastic if i could say so myself. I'll be reading a Philosophy module Reason and Persuasion, which touches on the works of Plato and Descartes. Hopefully i'll be able to understand what they are teaching during lectures. Damn i really want to do well in school. This is my last chance to prove to my parents and those assholes who think that i'm stupid, that i'm not. I'm going to own every single one of their monkey backsides, and when i'm done, i'll rub my degree into their faces and ask them to eat shit. Haha (evil laugh). Ok, that was a bit graphic and overboard, but hey, i have to prove that i can do it right? This time round, nothing is going to stop me. Hopefully.
Oh well, after an amazing cock up, i can't upload any photos from my trip cos my bro didn't bring back his camera. Actually come to think of it, its nothing much really. This means however that the photos will only come sometime in June when he's back for the summer. Yeah. Its going to be awhile.
Truth is, i guess that the reason i'm feeling like this is because i just can't stop thinking of her. I figure that she's moved on and stuff, but i haven't. Here i am, still hoping and waiting that one day, some day, it would work itself out. I'm way pass the self pity stage of things, but i just can't get her out of my head. I doubt she ever will be out of my life. We haven't talked for 3 months now. I wonder how she's doing.
Ever since i left the Army back in November last year, i can count the number of times i've gone out with my fingers and toes. So for 5 months i haven't really done anything productive or vaguely interesting. Yeah, it gets kinda lonely when you don't head out once in awhile. Seriously. Other than for my grand holiday to London, i haven't really done anything. Fine, i do go for driving lessons, but i'm really crap so i kinda hate going for them. Sigh. My life is going out of order. I don't even know what i should do. I'm bored, lonely and depressed. Maybe the beginning of school would bring some relief.
Speaking of school, i've got my timetable for the special term which starts in May. I only have 2 days of school a week. Hah! Fantastic if i could say so myself. I'll be reading a Philosophy module Reason and Persuasion, which touches on the works of Plato and Descartes. Hopefully i'll be able to understand what they are teaching during lectures. Damn i really want to do well in school. This is my last chance to prove to my parents and those assholes who think that i'm stupid, that i'm not. I'm going to own every single one of their monkey backsides, and when i'm done, i'll rub my degree into their faces and ask them to eat shit. Haha (evil laugh). Ok, that was a bit graphic and overboard, but hey, i have to prove that i can do it right? This time round, nothing is going to stop me. Hopefully.
Oh well, after an amazing cock up, i can't upload any photos from my trip cos my bro didn't bring back his camera. Actually come to think of it, its nothing much really. This means however that the photos will only come sometime in June when he's back for the summer. Yeah. Its going to be awhile.
Truth is, i guess that the reason i'm feeling like this is because i just can't stop thinking of her. I figure that she's moved on and stuff, but i haven't. Here i am, still hoping and waiting that one day, some day, it would work itself out. I'm way pass the self pity stage of things, but i just can't get her out of my head. I doubt she ever will be out of my life. We haven't talked for 3 months now. I wonder how she's doing.