I'm back, i think
Its been what, 2 weeks since i last posted and let's say quite a few things have changed since then. Ok, who am i trying to kid here, nothing has changed. Well, one things for sure, my blog is becoming a battlefield. So Ben and Ching, stop arguing on the tag board for god's sake!!
Finally, my course has ended and its back to camp from me starting this week. Well, it was a good 5 week break away from the crap i usually receive in camp so i'm kinda happy. I learnt something new, but i think that it really doesn't have any implication to me in the long run unless i sign my life a way to the army. Speaking of which, i have only 7 more months to go before i'm finally free of it (except for the call ups and stuff like that). Taking into account whatever public holidays, off and leaves i have outstanding, and the new term i learnt, 'magic off', i have about 4 and a half months of shit left to go. Which is good in a sense. I really really can't wait to get my life back. And i need it back fast.
On to other things, once in awhile i still feel like shit and i don't know why. I've tried to stop thinking of her, but i still do. Can't stop and i don't know why. Even though she's said that it just isn't possible, i still cling on to shreds of hope. I read somewhere that hope is what drives us human beings to do extraordinary things. As i go on with my life, i can't help but think that the guy was a bloody liar, and a good one at that because so many people believed in him. What can i say. Either way, things seem to be on a upward climb. Despite the situation descirbed above, things have more or less settled down. I just need to stop playing WoW, take out the dusty old phonebook and start making a few calls to those people i used to hang out with. Sec sch mates, College mates and maybe a few others who i haven't been talking to for a bit. Maybe things will start getting better. Just maybe. Either way i'm not letting my guard down anymore. I will not let myself be caught with my pants around my ankle especially by people whom i really care for. Don't worry, i'm not angry and its not her fault. Its just me.
I've got driving theory test tommorrow so i better go prepare for it. If not, i'm screwed and i wouldn't want that to happen. I want to drive. And i want to get a car too.
Finally, my course has ended and its back to camp from me starting this week. Well, it was a good 5 week break away from the crap i usually receive in camp so i'm kinda happy. I learnt something new, but i think that it really doesn't have any implication to me in the long run unless i sign my life a way to the army. Speaking of which, i have only 7 more months to go before i'm finally free of it (except for the call ups and stuff like that). Taking into account whatever public holidays, off and leaves i have outstanding, and the new term i learnt, 'magic off', i have about 4 and a half months of shit left to go. Which is good in a sense. I really really can't wait to get my life back. And i need it back fast.
On to other things, once in awhile i still feel like shit and i don't know why. I've tried to stop thinking of her, but i still do. Can't stop and i don't know why. Even though she's said that it just isn't possible, i still cling on to shreds of hope. I read somewhere that hope is what drives us human beings to do extraordinary things. As i go on with my life, i can't help but think that the guy was a bloody liar, and a good one at that because so many people believed in him. What can i say. Either way, things seem to be on a upward climb. Despite the situation descirbed above, things have more or less settled down. I just need to stop playing WoW, take out the dusty old phonebook and start making a few calls to those people i used to hang out with. Sec sch mates, College mates and maybe a few others who i haven't been talking to for a bit. Maybe things will start getting better. Just maybe. Either way i'm not letting my guard down anymore. I will not let myself be caught with my pants around my ankle especially by people whom i really care for. Don't worry, i'm not angry and its not her fault. Its just me.
I've got driving theory test tommorrow so i better go prepare for it. If not, i'm screwed and i wouldn't want that to happen. I want to drive. And i want to get a car too.
posted by ivan at
4/08/2007 07:48:00 pm
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