This is totally random

I received a message yesterday morning and it came when i was least expecting it. She told me to cheer up and not think to much. Then she said something which up till now i can't really decipher. Maybe things are not what they seem. Anyway, i was kinda busy so i didn't really do a follow up. I spent the whole night thinking about what this could mean. Anyway, so once i was done with work, i decided maybe i would send her a message and see what i can get out of the previous message. No reply, but i guess she had her reasons. Talked to her this morning to settle some issues. I still like her but she doesn't see it in that way. I'm thinking, why do i waste my time, but i guess that maybe there is something which i still have yet to discover about myself. Its not anything, its just so difficult to explain. Ths Internet and messages are really not enough anymore. I need to see her face, hear her voice and her laughter and just plain be with her, whether as a group or along, it doesn't matter anymore. Still, i hold on to the impossible dream, a shred of hope, that maybe, just maybe, one day i could just be with her.

Who am i trying to kid? I just don't want to feel this hurt anymore, please.

Seriously, i think i need a girlfriend.