Just so you know

1 week into my course and my brain is almost fried. As of today, i can't really remmeber what i learnt on Friday, and that sucks. Back in school, i could still more or less remember what was taught previously, even if the lessons were really boring (think Mr Goh and his hand-swinging and finger thingy). Yeah. But now, i cvan barely remember what the hell Int is all about. Let's see, terrain and drainage, relief, vegetation, LZs, LSs and LBs, bridges and GTIs. What the hell are GTIs anyway?? Screw it. Might as well just out-of-course me so i can get some rest. And i've got a test to do tommorrow. I'm so screwed. Haha. Just hope this un-studiable (is there even such a word?) period does not last for long. Uni seems a lot nearer now that i'm 8 months away from ORD and about another odd year to starting school again. Whew. Come to think of it, time has passed really fast this year. Its already March and it seem that January was only yesterday. Wearing green does have its good points. At least time passes so fast that you don't even notice that it has gone by. Bloody waste of time.

Just so you know/This feeling's taking control of me/And i can't help it/Won't sit around;can't let him win now/Thought you should know/I've tried my best to let go of you/But i don't want to/I just got to say it all before i go/Just so you know/

Well that kind of sums up how it feels right now. I don't know how to explain it. Its like, yeah, i acknowledge that she has her own life and that she's busy and stuff like that, but i keep getting either the wrong impressions of things or just plain don't get any impression at all. And its not something new when i say that i'm letting go of the issue, but somehow, things just come around full circle and i'm back where i started. The past few days have been rather hard as i tried looking for a sign. To ease the pain or to clear the doubt. The signs i get from her are mixed. I would really like to know what goes on in her mind. And whoever said that women have very complex minds, that person is a bloody genius and i salute him. If only i could read her intentions, then maybe i can make the right decisions, and ultimately, do what is right, not only for myself but for her as well. I can kind of figure the pain she is going through too and i'm really really sorry for it. Just give me some time to make things work out and it will be fine. So much for being Int trained when i can't even read the intentions of 1 person, let alone a whole army.

To make matters worse, i haven't been talking to the people who have always been there to help me. Well, i'm sorry, and if you read this and decide that maybe you want to forgive me, then drop me a msg or something like that and i'll make a full and proper apology.


Finally, sorry about the new blog thing, that i haven't been updating it. I'm too damn busy with the bloody course and haven't had time to read the papers. Besides, i've got the Burning Crusade to fight. Haha. GAME ON!!