Huh?
Ignore the title. I can't think of anything else to name the post so the 'Huh?'. Ok, for once i shall not rant about how screwed up the army is. The less said the better. Anyway, 4 more months to ORD. I just can't wait.
It seems that recently, i haven't been talking much to people about things going on with my life. And when they ask me about it, i can only give them vague answers. Ah well, the change seems to be coming over me now and its not going to stop. However, this seems to be leading to a freezing of certain relationships with people who used to play a large role in my life. And on top of that other things seem to be getting in the way of things. Figures. I know she's in a nice relationship now and i'm actually quite happy for her. I hope it works out for her this time. Bet he's the guy that i will never be. Oh well.
Swearing off getting attached is a really hard thing to do. In order to stay true to yourself, you've got to really detach yourself from things, especially when things start to get more, how would you put it, intimate? Sigh. Yup. At times things life seems that much more lonelier, especially when you see your friends with their partners, well it kind of sucks. Think of it as getting a low blow when you least expect it (ok, maybe not). That's just life. Full of low blows and all the monkey junk that screws around with your mind. But the difference between guys and gals is that for some reason or other, they just keep moving on. They sit down, make a decision and go. It may seem that guys are dense and stuff like that, and some of them act like sissies, in the end what matters the most is that we can just carry on doing what we enjoy.
Looking back at the past few years of my life, i see a whole load of trash along the paths that i have walked. I have screwed peoples lives up and have caused much headaches to those around me. The people who stood by me and the people who mocked me, they are still there. The people who hurt me, even in the most innocent ways they still can be called friends in a sense. As much as i hate to use the word, we've got to soldier on through the good times and the bad. Treasure the good, learn from the bad, don't make the same mistakes again.
Anyway, its been ages since i've lasted spoken to her. When i told her i needed my space, she gave it to me. Now, i think i need to normalise relationships with not only her, but with so many other people as well. Time i took the step out to face the world for what it really is.
It seems that recently, i haven't been talking much to people about things going on with my life. And when they ask me about it, i can only give them vague answers. Ah well, the change seems to be coming over me now and its not going to stop. However, this seems to be leading to a freezing of certain relationships with people who used to play a large role in my life. And on top of that other things seem to be getting in the way of things. Figures. I know she's in a nice relationship now and i'm actually quite happy for her. I hope it works out for her this time. Bet he's the guy that i will never be. Oh well.
Swearing off getting attached is a really hard thing to do. In order to stay true to yourself, you've got to really detach yourself from things, especially when things start to get more, how would you put it, intimate? Sigh. Yup. At times things life seems that much more lonelier, especially when you see your friends with their partners, well it kind of sucks. Think of it as getting a low blow when you least expect it (ok, maybe not). That's just life. Full of low blows and all the monkey junk that screws around with your mind. But the difference between guys and gals is that for some reason or other, they just keep moving on. They sit down, make a decision and go. It may seem that guys are dense and stuff like that, and some of them act like sissies, in the end what matters the most is that we can just carry on doing what we enjoy.
Looking back at the past few years of my life, i see a whole load of trash along the paths that i have walked. I have screwed peoples lives up and have caused much headaches to those around me. The people who stood by me and the people who mocked me, they are still there. The people who hurt me, even in the most innocent ways they still can be called friends in a sense. As much as i hate to use the word, we've got to soldier on through the good times and the bad. Treasure the good, learn from the bad, don't make the same mistakes again.
Anyway, its been ages since i've lasted spoken to her. When i told her i needed my space, she gave it to me. Now, i think i need to normalise relationships with not only her, but with so many other people as well. Time i took the step out to face the world for what it really is.
posted by ivan at
7/03/2007 01:25:00 pm
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