Faded
Ok, so it wasn't so bad after all. Signed one extra duty for the farcas which happend last week. Will be serving it this Saturday (bloody 24 hour duty), which puts me in certain jepoardy with my plans to go paintballing on Sunday morning. Well, what can i say other than just shut up and eat the shit. Should still be able to make the game time though. Finish duty by 0745 and i'll leave camp by 0830, leaving me half an hour to take a cab down to the place. At least then ben won't rip my head off for not turning up, though i may misfire like a chao recruit because i'm just so damn tired (24 hour duty = no sleep for at least 18+ hours). Anyway, i'm kinda glad that the only punishment i'm getting is 1 extra duty and nothing else. And the best part is that my December is not screwed because of it. I'm really really really really very lucky. Haha.
Oh yah, to the council guys, this is an open invite to my birthday party on the 16th of Dec. Yup, the youngest councillor is finally 19 years old. Haha. The girls don't seem interested so its all up to you. And remember to bring the implements of torture. I'm daring u guys to try to wassup me, though my parents wouldn't really care. Booze will be almost free-flow i guess, just 'kope' some from my bro's party doen the corridor. Yup. So we'll most probably booze till late, then my room (and whichever part of the house not being slept on by my bro's friends) is yours to command or sleep upon, where upon at the ungodly (yes, ungodly cos you're all most probably hungover) time you guys get up we can do whatever we want for the rest of the day. So yup. Generic plans so drop me a line if u want to come so i can get the food preped and ready to go.
Yep, i'm on the verge of giving up. I've been trying it for what? 2 years already, and yet, all i've gotten were 4 rejections. I mean like, i can't take much more of it. Every night, before i go to bed, i look back and see wasted chances, wasted time. I don't know what drives me to carry on this 'crusade' when what faces me seems like a 99% chance of failure. That's how a part of me feels right now. But another part of me feels different. It somehow feels different this time, like there is a sense of good-feeling in the air, something which i have never felt for quite a long time. Its these differing feelings that seem to be driving me to the point of no return. To pop the question now, to confess all my feelings, or to just let these feelings go away, never to be resurfaced again. I really do not know what to do. Some advice would be good, but all i'm getting are vague answers which carry little weight or are based on personal prejudices of one sort or another. To make matters worse, i sometimes don't even know what happening over the fence. Is she with someone else? Is she going to be receptive? Its these sort of questions that make me wonder. Is love even worth it?
I guess its time i went back to my shell and examine myself before jumping to any conclusions. I guess that its the only way that i will get out of the rut i've been falling back into all these years.
Oh yah, to the council guys, this is an open invite to my birthday party on the 16th of Dec. Yup, the youngest councillor is finally 19 years old. Haha. The girls don't seem interested so its all up to you. And remember to bring the implements of torture. I'm daring u guys to try to wassup me, though my parents wouldn't really care. Booze will be almost free-flow i guess, just 'kope' some from my bro's party doen the corridor. Yup. So we'll most probably booze till late, then my room (and whichever part of the house not being slept on by my bro's friends) is yours to command or sleep upon, where upon at the ungodly (yes, ungodly cos you're all most probably hungover) time you guys get up we can do whatever we want for the rest of the day. So yup. Generic plans so drop me a line if u want to come so i can get the food preped and ready to go.
Yep, i'm on the verge of giving up. I've been trying it for what? 2 years already, and yet, all i've gotten were 4 rejections. I mean like, i can't take much more of it. Every night, before i go to bed, i look back and see wasted chances, wasted time. I don't know what drives me to carry on this 'crusade' when what faces me seems like a 99% chance of failure. That's how a part of me feels right now. But another part of me feels different. It somehow feels different this time, like there is a sense of good-feeling in the air, something which i have never felt for quite a long time. Its these differing feelings that seem to be driving me to the point of no return. To pop the question now, to confess all my feelings, or to just let these feelings go away, never to be resurfaced again. I really do not know what to do. Some advice would be good, but all i'm getting are vague answers which carry little weight or are based on personal prejudices of one sort or another. To make matters worse, i sometimes don't even know what happening over the fence. Is she with someone else? Is she going to be receptive? Its these sort of questions that make me wonder. Is love even worth it?
I guess its time i went back to my shell and examine myself before jumping to any conclusions. I guess that its the only way that i will get out of the rut i've been falling back into all these years.
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11/21/2006 09:58:00 pm
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