When we were young.

Before i start off this post, i would like you guys reading to ignore the previous posts. I was just feeling really very down, just one of my moods. Its like running headlong into a wall. Seriously. The only person who feels anything is me and no one else. Ok, maybe not just me, but the only person to feel the detrimental effects is me. I humbly apologise to all those involved and hope that no offence is taken. I know you guys are always there. Its just that i didn't realise it when it mattered. To Ben and Miah, thanks a million dudes. Thanks for being there when i needed it. On hindsight, it really wasn't worth it.

Sometimes, i just wish i was young again. It was so simple then, when everything was taken for granted. Now, things have changed. I'm not the same person i used to be. I try to be more of a man, rather than a boy. But its just so difficult, fighting me demons, day in day out. It doesn't help when you get people dumping their problems on you and you've got nowhere to dump yours. Furthermore, it really really doesn't help when you get ignored by someone whom you really care about. I just want to talk with no other motive but yet its so difficult to do. But i figured that i shouldn't get angry, neither should i try to get even because all it can breed is just more pain and i'll-feeling between us. Its not worth it. I've spent more than 2 years trying to nurture a relationship between us and i don't want to ruin it just because of something i said on impulse.

Yeah. So if you are reading this, i guess that you are most probably pissed off with me and i can totally understand the sentiment.But if you happen to forgive me, just give me a message? I mean like i guess its time we had a real talk rather than just writing words which mean nothing without the human touch. I hate technology, but i love it when i see your face, your smile. If you can't or won't forgive me just yet, i accept your decision. But i hope you will.

Hope. Hope is everything i have left.