Goodbye Again?

It's in your mind,
It's in your eyes.
So it's goodbye again.
It's way past time,
For one last try.
So its goodbye again.
Goodbye again.

So, is it really goodbye for real this time? Is there really no turning back, no way we can resolve the issues? I don't know. Maybe it will solve itself some how. Things in my life seem to have a funny way of resolving themselves, but always in the way that i do not want it to end up. I guess i've just got to suck it up and get on with life. Can't let something like this bog me down from doing the things i really want to do.

Well, WoW subscription ends in 3 days time. I am actually kinda glad that it's ending. That way, i've got more time to do things i want to do. DRIVING! Starting in December when i go on leave. Haha. That would help me get my mind of things, though it won't help me save any money. Speaking about money, i've got to be more prudent in the way i'm spending my cash. Its like going faster than it comes in. Better do something about it if i want to leave the Army with some cash in the account, and its not as if the Army pays me a hell lot. I DON"T BELIEVE I PAID $120 FOR NEW GAMES AND A NEW GAMING MOUSE!!! CRAP! Ok, fine, i got backpaid almost 300 bucks last month, but still it doesn't give me a reason to spend so much at 1 shot. I must be going crazy. Haha.

As my course progresses, it seems to be getting better. Slowly. The warrants are starting to talk less and make more sense, I don't spend so much time waiting for things to happend, I'm not as sai kang anymore and most importantly, i got to g home nearly everyday this week, which is kinda good for me. Problem is that i'm just so damn drained that i can't muster the strength to anything much these few days. I mean like, i've turned into some sort of gaming zombie. Take today for example. I woke up at 10, and started playing computer almost immediately, which kinda sucks. I really am starting to lose my grip on reality. Haha. Not funny anymore. Seriously. Can't let the game take over my life.

Participating in a triathalon at the beginning of next month. Looking at my fitness state, i think i may just drop dead halfway while running. Haha. Better train up, if not for the pride of my unit, then for my own personal pride. There are scores which i have to settle with myself.

Is it goodbye again? I hope. Doing everything in my ability to make sure it goes right this time.