Something about..

Somehow or rather, things are starting to seem a little better these days. Sounds crazy but its kinda true. I'm starting to find my place. Well, maybe not fully, but yeah. Its getting somewhere and i'm quite happy with the progress. Lol. What am i saying. Seriously speaking, i still feel like shit. Its a feeling that comes and goes. Its there most of the time yeah. 

Sigh. Anyway, back to business. 7 weeks. =) 7 weeks. Only 7 more friggin weeks and i can finally take off the green for at least maybe the next 4 or 5 years. Then again, i still have to do my IPPT every year, but who cares? I have the incentive to do it so i'm not complaining. less than 50 days to my ORD. It will be a day of joyous celebration. I'm really tired now, really am. All the beauracatic tape which has to be cut, all the bullying and the fear of being cahrged for the slightest mistakes. Gone all, all gone. It is then replaced by the feeling of freedom. Freedom from the Army, freedom from regimentation, freedom from everything which any guy in his right mind wouldn't want to do. Its been 2 wasted years and it now ends. Great. But then again, what am i going to do after i ORD? I haven't really thought about it.

Didn't touch WoW for the whole weekend. An achievement towards my goal of finally breaking the habit once and for all. To tell you guys the truth, i found WoW really entertaining and it was there when i was really down. But somehow i feel that it has partially contributed to my current state. I'm lonely, i really am. Who exactly are my friends? Somehow i feel that most of them come with strings attached, like if u don't do this or you don't do that, you're not cool so you lose a friend. Sigh. I'm tired of this. I just can't keep it up anymore. I really have to stop.

There i've said it. And i admit it. I'm tired and i'm lonely. It feels cold, just so cold being me, locked up in an ice palace just like the Snow Queen in Hans Christian Andersen's book.

Who will be my Gerda?