Feel's good

1 more week and i will be a fully-fledged Corporal of the Singapore Armed Forces. Yeah! Pay rise and best of all, a chance to get out of SISPEC. Hope i get posted to a support arms unit, like arty or something cos i find that being an infantryman is really mindless and stupid. I want to do something more meaningful with my NS life. Whatever the case, i'll still do my best wherever i get posted to. I most probably not be going to OCS, but i'm kind of mentally prepared for that. After spending 10 weeks as a specialist trainee, i think that maybe i am not really cut out to be an officer, but more to be a section commander or something along that line. But still, i'm in sort of deep trouble cos i lost some stores. My sergeant is going to rip my head off for sure. Oh well. Lan lan suck thumb and eat shit lor. That's all i can do now. Beach road doesn't even sell it so what am i to do. 1206 and pay cut here i come! Haha.
I haven't talked to her for 2 months now. Wonder how she is doing. Is she ok and stuff like that. But what am i to say? I'm quite a failure really. I can't even do a simple thing like that. Maybe i am meant to be like this forever.
Anyway, as a wise man once said, nothing is for certain.