Tired, Lost.

Back from camp for the weekend again. Was a really tiring week. Too many test, not enough time to study. It's a wonder i still manage to do rather well. Scoring somewhere in the higher 80s range of marks. Not too bad considering that i spend most lessons trying to stop myself from sleeping and talking all sorts of cock with my section mates. As of now, SISPEC is all theory. Not really looking forward to outfield but i'll get used to it once it starts. Somehow. As my late section commander Sgt Ridhuan used to say, "Lan lan suck thumb". To the memory of my late Sergeant, i will suck it up and do the best i can wherever i am. One for Sergeant Ridhuan!

Anyway, here are some apologies which i think i owe a few people:
1. To Jean. Sorry if i sounded blunt on your tag board the other time. No offense meant about the SISPEC-OCS thing.
2. To my BMT section mates. Sorry for not being there when i was needed. Its just that i have things to settle.
3. To my college mates and school mates. Fo making you listen to all the rubbish i have put you guys through, listening to me rant on and on incoherently for hours on end.
Those are the apologies for now. Yup. better make them before anymore shit happens.

Have been feeling a little under the weather the last few days. There are times in camp where i just totally switch off and don't think (when i put on my helmet for example). Had a little conversation with tiff last night and what she said i guess is really through. Life is what you make it out to be. That's putting it simply, like a summary of sorts. Come to think of it, that was the first time in a long time i have spoken to her on such a level. I miss those days when we could just talk about anything under the sun for god know how long. haha. Anyway, thanks tiff for the advice and stuff. I'll put it to practice and see what i can do. I'm sure i'll be better soon.