Portrait of an Apology
Ok, fine, i admit it. I'm not angry anymore. I'm sorry if i have been a pain in the ass the past few days. Yup. You guys know me. And yes ching, i've let it go. Negotiations are now open. If you read this, give me a call. If i don't pick up, message me. I'll call back. You know who you are. Yup. I'm really sorry. Now is the time to work it out.
Anyway, my leave is coming to an end. So sad. I'm going to SISPEC, that is to train to become a sergeant. But looking on the bright side, there are cross overs to OCS after 6 weeks, 11 weeks and 20 weeks in the course. Hope i can make either one of those, preferably the first one. It was a good 12 days. Played rugby on thursday against the junior team. Seniors won 4-2. I made a classic 20 odd metre run down the flank, did a good line out (coach said that it was classic, i didn't even jump, caught the opposition with their pants around their ankles). But kudos to the juniors. They really gave us a good game. Good luck to them for the 'A' Division in april. Do us proud, make it to the top 4 this year.
I haven't talked to her for quite a long time. Hope she is doing well. Maybe i'll call her or message one of these days to see how's she's getting along. Though we most probably won't be together, at least we could remain friends. What can i say? Sometimes i wish i could go back in time and make things alright, but i can't. Who knows maybe in the future... haha.. shouldn't get my hopes up too high. I've missed the boat, its never coming back unless i swim real fast. Am i willing to take up the challenge? I'm willing to take another risk, but am i ready to take the inevitable rejection again? Questions i need to ask myself before i jump into it again. I need something to show for it, something to make me look good in her eyes. That will be my main drive for me to want to go to OCS. I don't mind the shit i will have to go through, the balls i have to carry to get to my goal. To ease the pain i feel, to lift my ego just one more time.
Anyhow, i'm back to camp on monday. won't be back for awhile, about 2 wweeks. Hope everything goes on well with you guys. Anything, i've still got my phone, call me. Haha.. i'll be either too busy or chionging up some hill or bashing through the jungles. Haha. Hope i survive. I want to wear No. 1 parade uniform and take a sword from the president. I will work super hard to achieve my goal. Nothing is going to stop me. Nothing.
Guts, Spirit, Courage. Hu-Ha!
Anyway, my leave is coming to an end. So sad. I'm going to SISPEC, that is to train to become a sergeant. But looking on the bright side, there are cross overs to OCS after 6 weeks, 11 weeks and 20 weeks in the course. Hope i can make either one of those, preferably the first one. It was a good 12 days. Played rugby on thursday against the junior team. Seniors won 4-2. I made a classic 20 odd metre run down the flank, did a good line out (coach said that it was classic, i didn't even jump, caught the opposition with their pants around their ankles). But kudos to the juniors. They really gave us a good game. Good luck to them for the 'A' Division in april. Do us proud, make it to the top 4 this year.
I haven't talked to her for quite a long time. Hope she is doing well. Maybe i'll call her or message one of these days to see how's she's getting along. Though we most probably won't be together, at least we could remain friends. What can i say? Sometimes i wish i could go back in time and make things alright, but i can't. Who knows maybe in the future... haha.. shouldn't get my hopes up too high. I've missed the boat, its never coming back unless i swim real fast. Am i willing to take up the challenge? I'm willing to take another risk, but am i ready to take the inevitable rejection again? Questions i need to ask myself before i jump into it again. I need something to show for it, something to make me look good in her eyes. That will be my main drive for me to want to go to OCS. I don't mind the shit i will have to go through, the balls i have to carry to get to my goal. To ease the pain i feel, to lift my ego just one more time.
Anyhow, i'm back to camp on monday. won't be back for awhile, about 2 wweeks. Hope everything goes on well with you guys. Anything, i've still got my phone, call me. Haha.. i'll be either too busy or chionging up some hill or bashing through the jungles. Haha. Hope i survive. I want to wear No. 1 parade uniform and take a sword from the president. I will work super hard to achieve my goal. Nothing is going to stop me. Nothing.
Guts, Spirit, Courage. Hu-Ha!
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3/19/2006 12:35:00 am
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