Light in your eyes.
I'm back. After the events of last week, i think i've finally come round to some of the issues in my life. Thanks to those people who were there for me. I know it must be a pain because i slip into these moods ever so often and for no apparent reason. At least i know that there are people who actually care out there, some unexpected ones and some which really made me feel much better. Thanks. =)
Anyway, its the Christmas season again. Not that i really enjoy Christmas that much, but yeah, its here again. This season, i think i'll make a promise to myself, which i hope i can keep. This year, i'll try to enjoy Christmas. Usually its the time of the year that i get a whole load of news which i don't like to hear and it screws up my moods. Sheesh! I sound like a girl with moods and stuff. I'll try not to look into my head so much and just try to enjoy being around family. I don't know why i'm writing this. Hopefully this year Christmas would be different for me. Maybe, for a change i'll get some good news. Who knows? Just as she said, i've got to find myself again before i get others to find me. Maybe that's where i've been going wrong all this time. I don't really know who or what i am. The person i really am is not the person i make myself out to be. Its just that not many people know this and it takes a bit of digging to find it. And i've got to open up more too i guess.
Well, i hope things look up again. I've got to try. I can't afford to keep on falling into this cycle over and over again. Now that i have less things on my hands and more time to do the things i want to do, i had better start improving myself if i'm ever to reach my dreams. I've got to start exercising cos i'm getting fat. I've got to get my driving licence before Chinese New Year. And many other things. Its a little early to wish for things in the coming year, but there are things which i really really want.
Enough for now. My thoughts are still swirling around inside my head. Before i start writing the wrong things, its time to go.
Anyway, its the Christmas season again. Not that i really enjoy Christmas that much, but yeah, its here again. This season, i think i'll make a promise to myself, which i hope i can keep. This year, i'll try to enjoy Christmas. Usually its the time of the year that i get a whole load of news which i don't like to hear and it screws up my moods. Sheesh! I sound like a girl with moods and stuff. I'll try not to look into my head so much and just try to enjoy being around family. I don't know why i'm writing this. Hopefully this year Christmas would be different for me. Maybe, for a change i'll get some good news. Who knows? Just as she said, i've got to find myself again before i get others to find me. Maybe that's where i've been going wrong all this time. I don't really know who or what i am. The person i really am is not the person i make myself out to be. Its just that not many people know this and it takes a bit of digging to find it. And i've got to open up more too i guess.
Well, i hope things look up again. I've got to try. I can't afford to keep on falling into this cycle over and over again. Now that i have less things on my hands and more time to do the things i want to do, i had better start improving myself if i'm ever to reach my dreams. I've got to start exercising cos i'm getting fat. I've got to get my driving licence before Chinese New Year. And many other things. Its a little early to wish for things in the coming year, but there are things which i really really want.
Enough for now. My thoughts are still swirling around inside my head. Before i start writing the wrong things, its time to go.
posted by ivan at
12/01/2007 04:56:00 pm
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