Begining to feel old..
I woke up this morning with a hacking cough and an aching back. Happy 20th Birthday Ivan. You're getting old and your body is starting to disintegrate each year that you progress. Ah what the hell. As i age, i'm starting to feel more like being a pain to others. Don't ask me why but it just feels that way. Maybe i'm weird. Who knows?
Thanks to all the people who sent me birthday wishes which, not counting family, came up to a grand total of 7 people. That is really how sad this birthday has been. Its not a special day, its just a day where you're supposed to be happy, feeling good about yourself, laughing and enjoying yourself be it with friends or family. Go figure how my 20th felt. Dry, boring and a real pain in the ass. Sometimes i wonder why i even care when most people don't.
So how did the day go was the question Ching asked. I had lunch with 2 aunts who really are old bags (but the do give pretty large ang paos so i allowed myself to be tortured for over 2 hours). Then i came home, took a nap then went for dinner with my parents which would have been totally fine if my sister wasn't doing her horse-face routine the entire night as she tried buying clothes for our coming trip (to nowhere really, its just some fancy dandy cruise where we are expected to wear suits to dinner). Then it was back home to write this account on how pathetic birthday celebrations have become to my family (and me for that matter).
Being 20 means alot of things. Firstly, i lose the -teen suffix to my age which also means that i can't afford to act like a kid or a teen any more. No more teenage angst and whining. Can't afford to show weakness to people. Having to be more mature in thought and deed. Things like that. And just for laughs, December 16th is the Independence Day of Kazakhstan. Very nice, great success!
Anyway, so that's how my 20th came and went. Sheesh! I'll be 21 next year and its supposed to be something special. Hope it doesn't turn out like this because the feeling really sucks. You should try it too, then you'll know how it really feels.
Thanks to all the people who sent me birthday wishes which, not counting family, came up to a grand total of 7 people. That is really how sad this birthday has been. Its not a special day, its just a day where you're supposed to be happy, feeling good about yourself, laughing and enjoying yourself be it with friends or family. Go figure how my 20th felt. Dry, boring and a real pain in the ass. Sometimes i wonder why i even care when most people don't.
So how did the day go was the question Ching asked. I had lunch with 2 aunts who really are old bags (but the do give pretty large ang paos so i allowed myself to be tortured for over 2 hours). Then i came home, took a nap then went for dinner with my parents which would have been totally fine if my sister wasn't doing her horse-face routine the entire night as she tried buying clothes for our coming trip (to nowhere really, its just some fancy dandy cruise where we are expected to wear suits to dinner). Then it was back home to write this account on how pathetic birthday celebrations have become to my family (and me for that matter).
Being 20 means alot of things. Firstly, i lose the -teen suffix to my age which also means that i can't afford to act like a kid or a teen any more. No more teenage angst and whining. Can't afford to show weakness to people. Having to be more mature in thought and deed. Things like that. And just for laughs, December 16th is the Independence Day of Kazakhstan. Very nice, great success!
Anyway, so that's how my 20th came and went. Sheesh! I'll be 21 next year and its supposed to be something special. Hope it doesn't turn out like this because the feeling really sucks. You should try it too, then you'll know how it really feels.
posted by ivan at
12/16/2007 08:41:00 pm
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