New Year, old demons
Happy New Year to everyone. Not that it is a very happy new year, but still, Happy New Year. It just feels like a continuation of the bad dream we call life. The year pretty much started out on the wrong foot for me. But yeah, a few days on and i think i may actually do fine this year, if things don't go spiraling out of control again, like my emotions. Speaking of emotions, ignore the previous post, really. I wasn't in control of myself then, just a temporary madness. Not that i didn't mean what i said, i really do, but yeah. I just wasn't thinking straight when i was writing that.
Its a new year, with new things to look forward to. I start studying in the University this year and hopefully i do well. Getting my life in order is a top priority too. I have to start acting my age and start thinking like an adult. But if i keep slipping back into moods like the previous one, i'm never going to get anywhere, which is really sad. I may have been killing myself slowly without me noticing anything. Now that i understand things better (more or less), i have to make a conscious effort to keep myself from following old patterns again. I guess that the reasons why i have been unsuccessful after so many attempts is because of this. I'm going to be 21 so i had better start acting my age.
Speaking of turning 21, it seems that people are starting to have their birthdays already. Already i've been booked on 3 days. Which means 3 presents, which means more going out of my pocket. That leaves me with almost no money to spend for the most important birthday at the end of the year. Come to think of it, what's so special about 21 anyway? Its just another year added to our ages. All i know is that i'm starting to feel a little old now, which is not a good thing because i feel like i've wasted most of my youth on nothing. Sigh.
Anyway, its kind of a tradition to come up with resolutions at the new year, and this year is no exception. So here are my resolutions, and hopefully i can achieve them.
Ah sigh, so its another new year ahead. Maybe 2008 isn't that bad after all. Just have to look at the bright side of things and hopefully things will finally turn out good for me.
Its a new year, with new things to look forward to. I start studying in the University this year and hopefully i do well. Getting my life in order is a top priority too. I have to start acting my age and start thinking like an adult. But if i keep slipping back into moods like the previous one, i'm never going to get anywhere, which is really sad. I may have been killing myself slowly without me noticing anything. Now that i understand things better (more or less), i have to make a conscious effort to keep myself from following old patterns again. I guess that the reasons why i have been unsuccessful after so many attempts is because of this. I'm going to be 21 so i had better start acting my age.
Speaking of turning 21, it seems that people are starting to have their birthdays already. Already i've been booked on 3 days. Which means 3 presents, which means more going out of my pocket. That leaves me with almost no money to spend for the most important birthday at the end of the year. Come to think of it, what's so special about 21 anyway? Its just another year added to our ages. All i know is that i'm starting to feel a little old now, which is not a good thing because i feel like i've wasted most of my youth on nothing. Sigh.
Anyway, its kind of a tradition to come up with resolutions at the new year, and this year is no exception. So here are my resolutions, and hopefully i can achieve them.
- Get my driver's license
- Study hard and do well in Uni
- Be less of a pain in the ass and more of a friend
- Put to rest all my old demons
- Make my peace with her, no matter what the outcome is
Ah sigh, so its another new year ahead. Maybe 2008 isn't that bad after all. Just have to look at the bright side of things and hopefully things will finally turn out good for me.
posted by ivan at
1/08/2008 07:02:00 pm
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