The Adventure

Almost done with my first week as an 'instructor' of sorts. Spent the whole of the week in the bloody computer lab freezing my balls off and trying to figure out some weird simulator programme. Up to now, i still don't understand half of what the hell is happening. Like all of a suddden, i find my pilot in the middle of the water. I mean, WTF? And it cost the SAF 3 million bucks. Great way to spend taxpayers money. With 3 million bucks, i could....

Haha. Better not hink about it or even write it down. Most probably would get sued or something.

Out of nowhere, i've just suddenly lost my direction in life. Its like i have no more goal. In the past i used to have at least something to look forward to, some demons to fight and some unattainable dream to try to attain. But now, after letting all the excess baggage go and declaring to stay away from mtrouble for a long time, i've kind of lost that zest for life i used to have. It seems that everyday is the same, no matter how hard i try to screw it up. Everyone seems uncharacteristically nice to me. Weird. Shedding the bad boy, super angst image i used to have has made my life boring. I think i'm being too nice to people and i can sense that i'll be taken advantage of soon. Well, i don't know what to do. Should i unleash the evil side of me again, or should i just stay the way i am, all nice, polite and cool headed?

I really don't know. I'll leave it up to you people to decide.